[00:00.000] 作词 : Vincent Jacovelli
[00:12.448]And I don't wanna live like this
[00:14.223]I'm on my own
[00:17.802]And I don't wanna leave right now
[00:19.605]But I'm all alone
[00:23.371]Never thought I'd try suicide
[00:25.519]But my mind is a prison
[00:26.997]I'm peeking through the blinds
[00:28.269]And I know my decision will be scrutinized
[00:31.039]But you can't judge a man until you looking through his eyes
[00:33.752]Cause they wanna call me selfish
[00:35.572]Wake up every day the same and I feel helpless
[00:38.372]Everyone around me telling me life's precious
[00:41.105]But all I feel is pain so pardon me if I'm skeptic
[00:43.902]I've been feeling sick
[00:45.201]Sick of feeling worthless
[00:46.502]Sick of acting like every day's been so perfect
[00:49.336]Sick of feeling pain
[00:50.798]Fake smiles on the surface
[00:52.134]Sick of waking up knowing I don't have a purpose
[00:54.803]And I don't wanna die, but I know it's for the best
[00:57.448]Trying to find peace, but I know there's nothing left
[01:00.202]Only time I feel bliss is the moment of my death
[01:03.036]Maybe I can finally smile as I take my last breath
[01:05.995]Try to tun a page, I'm stuck in the same chapter
[01:08.652]Searching for some love, I ain't finding what I'm after
[01:11.430]Swear these damn thoughts controlling me like a cancer
[01:14.183]What's the point of life, I can never find the answer
[01:17.086]Damn
[01:18.868]And I don't wanna make my mother cry
[01:20.902]But all the pain I've been feeling is being multiplied
[01:23.246]So when she finally comes to terms that her son has died
[01:26.253]Tell her I'm looking for happiness on the other side
[01:29.683]And I don't wanna live like this
[01:31.455]I'm on my own
[01:34.997]And I don't wanna leave right now
[01:36.729]But I'm all alone
[01:40.218]Cause I don't wanna feel this pain
[01:43.213]I'd rather die right now
[01:46.200]I just wanna be okay
[01:49.989]Oohohoh
[01:51.402]Wait, before you make your decision
[01:53.201]Take a second, put yourself in your family's position
[01:55.999]Know you feeling like death is the only way but it isn't
[01:58.798]Know the pains hard but I swear it's just here to visit
[02:01.463]So please
[02:02.046]Don't do it, I can promise that it doesn't help
[02:04.534]The pain'll pass, you're passing the pain to someone else
[02:07.436]You got a beautiful soul, Don't make em suffer
[02:09.953]I know you'll get through, I know that you got it covered
[02:13.033]You're made special, kind loving and gentle
[02:15.512]Even if you can't see just know that you got potential
[02:18.302]I know you suffer through the day tryna hold composure
[02:21.364]But god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers
[02:24.265]I don't wanna see the day that you fall apart
[02:26.930]So keep pushing, a fighter I know that's who you are
[02:29.683]Even know you feel like you live with a broken heart
[02:32.546]Just know the darkest nights make the brightest stars
[02:35.231]And I promise it gets better with time
[02:37.374]I know it doesn't feel like it but depression it lies
[02:40.108]You deserve much more so just sever the ties
[02:42.836]Between those toxic thoughts and you're intelligent mind
[02:46.398]I know it's tough when you're battling depression
[02:48.690]It's hard to fake a smile with the pain that you're suppressing
[02:51.467]Your mind plays tricks and it got you second guessing
[02:54.200]But people care about you and need the feel of your presence
[02:57.105]You got family they love you try to remember
[02:59.620]I know you think you're nothing but in the mind you're a treasure
[03:02.370]Times get rough and I know you feeling the pressure
[03:05.167]But I've been through it too and I know that it gets better
[03:08.872]And I don't wanna live like this
[03:10.718]I'm on my own
[03:14.289]And I don't wanna leave right now
[03:15.919]But I'm all alone
[03:19.732]Cause I don't wanna feel this pain
[03:22.550]I'd rather die right now
[03:25.481]I just wanna be okay
[03:29.289]Oohohoh