[00:21.91]Show me where the levee is, let's sit and watch the river
[00:24.50]As it flows with a consistency I wish we could pursue
[00:27.47]And though the pain is evident, this journey was a requisite
[00:30.64]I feel a certain heaviness, I know you feel it too
[00:33.49]My body weakens when these memories spontaneously
[00:36.35]Break into my brain. Ironic how the pain
[00:38.80]Is amplified like a speaker when the times contemplated
[00:41.80]Were the days that were greatest: now it's all that remains
[00:44.29]There's something special, something simply unforgettable
[00:47.29]About this simple gathering, living and intentional
[00:50.29]I'm sitting with a pen, a thought a statue on it's pedestal
[00:53.17]Written down the memories to stash it in my envelope
[00:56.00]So here's a memo and a billion copper pennies
[00:58.39]Representing every though I had of you (it's not for spending)
[01:01.71]But I'm spent and I'm ending my attempts of assertiveness
[01:04.41]And praying to my Father that His Will ain't misinterpreted
[01:07.24]These mistakes... That's how I'm learning it
[01:10.08]I hate change... But that's what inertia is
[01:13.08]I made a table from the pain that overdosed my conscience
[01:16.23]Broke my fist and then I wrote this bloody poem on it
[01:18.94]Show me to trail that'll take us to the waterfall
[01:21.48]Listen to the metaphor: learn from it's example
[01:24.24]Even though we fall, we should always be transparent
[01:26.98]Even though we crash, we will always be majestic
[01:29.58]Watch me discipline my patience like a finger to the parchment
[01:32.66]The fire in my heart just seemed to flicker in the darkness
[01:35.46]Traded in my passion for the sake of the tradition
[01:38.18]Beat my body for the mission but the payment was my vision
[01:41.08]I know I'm young but I know something wasn't feeling right
[01:43.69]This sacrifice should never keep me weeping in my sleep at night
[01:46.83]I'm misaligned like a lady losing focus
[01:49.10]Holds her baby on her shoulder with a case of scoliosis
[01:52.37]We're getting close but never close enough to open up
[01:55.03]I'm getting cold but never close enough to warm me up
[01:58.25]This one's for everybody hiding in the secrecy
[02:00.84]For every week of being weak without you seeing it
[02:03.96]For every inconsistent moment asking if it's worth it
[02:06.86]I forgive that I could count on your discouragement
[02:09.70]God forbid perhaps I sicken you with honesty
[02:12.27]And I forgive that you've withheld your reciprocity
[02:15.23]You ever felt the pain of weeping with sincerity
[02:17.82]To find that not a single drop released was taken seriously?
[02:20.63]Have you ever chose to chase the passion in your heart?
[02:23.50]Flaming matches in the dark? Making action from a spark?
[02:26.24]Ignite the fear and vanish, scrape the ashes so the diamond shines
[02:28.94]Only in the end just to be criticized: I just can't
[02:31.75]Reach the expectations set by everybody else
[02:34.29]When I hardly could fulfill the ones I'm setting for myself
[02:37.14]Let's have another meeting... let's talk about the plan
[02:39.94]Let's discuss how we'll advance, let's entrust it in His hands
[02:42.67]I'm sorry for my apathy, I've been depressed lately
[02:45.63]I haven't been myself I know, I've been so stressed lately
[02:48.47]I know what real darkness is, road is long and arduous
[02:51.38]The yoke is hard and pardon for the scarring on my cartilage
[02:54.26]Locked in war and the casualty is hope and growth
[02:57.14]I'm battling with emptiness, my family is broke
[02:59.34]And I just want to talk, but it just seems you're busy praying
[03:02.36]We're swimming in an ocean and it's hard to stay afloat
[03:05.39]I'm sickened from the drowning so I floated to the coast
[03:07.91]And then I walked upon the dock and now I'm waiting for the boat
[03:10.62]I'm here to help, so here's a pair of empty shoulders
[03:14.00]Let me take upon the load; ignore the fact my soul is broken
[03:16.80]It's best to settle if we can't defeat the elements
[03:19.72]When comfort is an easy price to pay to be irrelevant
[03:22.62]So what happened? You wonder for my absence
[03:25.47]My answer is pointing to the fact it's my sadness
[03:28.13]And sin. I can't even manage my skin
[03:30.67]To fake being intact; the scars from within
[03:33.59]I needed help, badly. And pity doesn't do it
[03:36.45]Nor does singing over music when your actions ain't congruent
[03:39.19]I'm sorry. I love you, but it sucks that I'm so insecure
[03:42.30]Even when I showed my heart,bled it out... poured
[03:44.82]But I never saw yours. I never saw yours
[03:47.60]I'm all grown up, yet I'm so immature
[03:50.35]The nuisance it will tailor... I'm stupid with emotions
[03:53.26]If this Kuya was a failure then this truth is my atonement
[03:56.09]I never know the right words to say
[03:58.63]I can't control myself standing face to face
[04:02.24]I'm a coward so I can't just speak it all...
[04:04.78]And this is why I love to write these stupid freaking songs
[04:07.56]And I just want to say I freaking miss my family
[04:10.11]I cherished every moment we all had of being happy
[04:12.89]I wish that we could fix the petty grudges that we're holding
[04:15.73]I wish that we'd forgive each other's faults before it's too late
[04:18.57]But it wasn't your fault. I promise that I pray for you
[04:21.43]Your memory embedded in my brain everyday for you
[04:24.57]I'm here for you. I love you and I swear that's what I'm here to do
[04:27.40]I'd sacrifice whatever if it makes the Gospel clear to you
[04:30.11]If God would grant me peace, well then I promise I would stay for you
[04:32.96]If I were called to fight for this, I promise I would train for you
[04:35.67]And if the game is life or death so then I promise I would play for you
[04:38.47]And even though I'm gone I freaking promise I remain for you
[04:41.21]So show me where the levee is, let's sit and watch the river
[04:44.03]As it flows a tranquility that softens up the pavement
[04:46.71]I think the rain is coming... Wash away the heaviness
[04:49.71]You'll always be a blessing to my life... you will always be Famous
[04:54.26]We will always be Famous
[04:57.18]You will always be Famous
[05:00.02]We will always be Famous