[00:00.000] 作词 : Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
[00:00.364] 作曲 : Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
[00:00.729] I think it was–, I took my first Vicodin, it was just like, this feeling of "Ahh"
[00:05.573] You know, like everything was not only mellow, but didn't feel any pain
[00:10.529] They just didn't–, it just kind of numbed things
[00:12.819] I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem
[00:17.121] I just remember likin' it more and more
[00:20.290] People try to tell me that I had a problem
[00:22.544] I would say "Get that ****in' person out of here, I can't believe they said that shit to me, they know nothin' about my ****in' life, are they out of their ****in' mind?"
[00:29.351] I'm not out there shootin' ******, I'm not out there ****in', you know, puttin' coke up my nose, I'm not smokin' crack
[00:35.005] You'rе struggling with the argument of "Do you have a problеm, or do you not have a problem? Can you control it, or can you not?"
[00:41.541] And I literally thought I could control it
[00:43.559] You're taking things that people are giving you that, you don't even know what the **** they are
[00:48.442] They look like a pill, and they look– they're shaped like something that you take, so you take it, you know
[00:56.073] Xanax, Valium, tomato-tomato
[00:59.228] You know what I mean? It's th– the same thing, it's all in the same family, **** it, take it
[01:03.066] Had I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later, I would've died
[01:07.476] My organs were shutting down, my liver, kidneys, everything
[01:10.681] They were gonna have to put me on dialysis, they didn't think I was gonna make it
[01:13.550] My bottom was gonna be death, within a month, I had relapsed
[01:18.584] And shot right back up too, insane amount of pills that I was taking
[01:22.042] I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day, like "I'm gonna ****ing die", like, I'm– I'm looking at my kids, and I need to be here for this
[01:31.291] Coming off of everything, I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three weeks straight
[01:36.296] And I mean not sleeping, not even nodding off for a ****ing minute
[01:42.224] Like, I was literally just up, like, looking at the TV
[01:46.713] I had to regain motor skills, I had to regain talking skills
[01:50.325] It's been a– a learning process, like, it's been, I'm growing
[01:54.604] I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy, or naturally function, or be just enjoying life in general, without being on something
[02:03.566] So, I would say that t– to anybody that I– it does get better, you know? It just– it does